How bad do I want this?

The reason for me being so successful a few years back was because I would question myself on a daily, if not hourly about how bad and how much do I want this?
I would always ask myself, how bad do I want this? What am I willing to sacrifice for it? What would I do before I can achieve it?

Now looking back, I pray and wish that I will have that mentality and continue to question myself this on a daily basis.
Motivation does not come to you, you look for the motivation to keep you going. And here I am pushing hard to get that motivation and drive again, in all the aspects of my life..

Be it in ministry, studies, family and dancing, how much am I willing to sacrifice for it?
I want to be able to look back and know that I have done my best, to know that I want that so badly.

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Was just reading a book just now, and the main character suffered a lot but in the end, she managed to graduate with a full degree of dance choreography. Though this is just some fictional story, I would definitely wish that I am able to reach such a level.
With all these things surfacing in my life showing how I want this, I need to get my butt off lazing around.
With hard work and pain, I can achieve what I want...

On a random note, I find it completely normal and I actually love it when I perspire during dance, but I absolutely hate it when I perspire doing something else. Walking, running, standing under the sun etc...
I love the tiredness of my body, the muscle aches I feel and the blisters that never fail to form under my feet.
Proves to show how hard I am pushing myself.
Now is the time to apply this in my studies.

Looking 7 months ahead, I will NOT regret this.
How bad do I want this?

We can watch the sunrise

Why am I not surprise with the things that are happening now?

Was thinking bout everything last night and I guess we are at a stage 4 or 5...
Somewhere somehow I guess one of us stopped trying.
Will still and am still trying, I'm not gonna let this just fall.

Of all the things that are happening, I cannot believe that the things I thought would never happen is happening now...
At times I ask myself why is this happening? Yet at times I am thankful that this is happening...

Still trying to swallow the lump in my throat