Battefield

Current music: Russian roulette- Rihanna

Current mood: pissed but yet so calm

i am so pissed of by _______________ but yet i dont feel angry. maybe thats because we've drifted too far apart for me to feel a thing.

maybe that's how its gonna be next year.

i still remember that look on your face when i saw you, thats something i'll never forget.

it was ______.

i thought we were friends, but i guess not.

when i saw your ____, i was so shocked to see what you _____.

i didnt know you thought that way of us.

totally disappointment but i guess thats just the way it is.

maybe thats how our lives are meant to be.

friends, but not till the end.

leave unsaid, unspoken

Current music: Broken-hearted girl- Beyonce

Current mood: full of regrets but hopeful

omg the year is coming to an end and all i did this holiday was go for dance&musical pract&going for church stuff etcetcetc.

totally no time for myself ):

i was just telling serene&joey[ no order] about my holiday and how i wasn't able to have me-time ): ):

my holiday was totally burnt due to a never ending schedule of stuff for me. sigh

but I'm totally glad that i didn't waste my holidays rotting like some fool[ no offence] because i spent my time doing so many stuff that i love :)

ya okay just went to kl last week-ish.

so happy omg so funny every night we would watch those shows in the hotel room until i fell asleep heheh.

okay i had so much fun having time to rest ahh~

anyway just had dance pract today so tiring but so fun.

anyway i totally need to buy my school stuff cause school's reopening in like a few days!

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Happy Birthday Adelene!!!!!!!!!!

sorry this is so delayed, anyway i hope you had a great celebration!

seeyou soon!

<3

happy.happy.happy.

Current music: Bad Romance- Lady Gaga

Current mood: Happy.

i've been feeling really happy nowadays, esp today.

cause there's only 2 more days till we go kl!

yes i know its just kl but omg its so cool im finally taking a break from everything i am so happy!

there's other stuff too like dance ends @ 4 on tues which means i can make it on time to mcg cause i am the game master & we're suppose to be there @ 12 i think.

anyway, im also very happy cause its christmas~

even though i dont feel any christmas spirit yet, i know i will feel it soon!

hahah, oh anyway, yesterday's pre-christmas service was so funny& the answer was also very lame.

hahahah anyway off to watch welcome 2 taiwan cause my mum wants me to watch it.

Level Up!

Current music: Bad Romance- Lady Gaga

Current Mood: tired&happy

had church camp on monday, which is called Level Up.

i've learnt so many things throughout this 3 day camp.

i am so tired now also because i only slept for an hour yesterday.

anyway, omg we had l4d live! during camp.

hahaha so funny we were all running like crazy.

hahahah!

anyway yay im so happy i've met all my camp objectives.

oh btw OMG THE TABLE TENNIS GUY'S FACE @ SSS IS ONE OF A KIND!

okay he makes me laugh like md since day 1 when i saw his face!

hahaha!

i dont mean in a handsome way hahah!

i'll show you how he looks like when erica or minyi uploads it.

omg i kept on laughing like shit than me,cristine,seokxian,minyi[ no order] will always like like shit when we see his face!

oh i love sss they had beds ahhh~

hehe ya so happy.

okay anyway im dozing off as i type this sentence.

anyway so sobs ness&banan went shopping & i rejected their invitation to go too cause im so tired plus no money heeh

Update:

Hey movement&dance dancers,
please take note that there will not be any dance pract on thursday, 16 Dec, due to lack of money etc.
we will resume practice on the 22 dec, 1-5pm.
if needed, we will extend pract.
please inform all the other dancers too.
thank you. :)

it's been a long time coming

current music: keep holding on- avril lavinge*[?]

Current mood: sobsation

i dont know why but i always feel sad everytime i on the comp.

hahah good excuse to not usse the comp alrdy.

anyway there's a ydance bonding camp @ 14 lor gambir & i dont know how to go there!

lalalalalalaaaa so funny[ inside joke] okay anyway im gonna have such a busy week ahead cause of heheh shopping time + others.

meeting sonia this thurs! whoo~

went jb yesterday & yay i had my manicure. so happy :)

&banani&ness permed their hair.

haah banani is a armani wannabe!

time machine

Current music: starstrukk - 3OH!3

Current mood: sad

there's so many things that i realise im missing out on.

being sec3 was an awesome experience but at the same time i forsaked many things to do something else.

i feel like there's something missing now & yea it sucks.

i missed out on a lot of things because of many stuff and yea..

whatever.

its over now, what can i do?

Breathe.

Current music: Happy- Leona Lewis

Current mood: disappointed but hopeful

this week was such a tiring week for me.

on monday,

went to istana park to teach the dance for el talento than went home.

on tuesday,

went for camp till 145pm than left to go back to istana park to teach the dance again than @ 830, we went for el talento's audition which was such a letdown. my fault.

on wednesday,

went for back for camp.

so funny @ night.

drinking coke&eating a nibble of london choco roll @ night = very high = laugh until my stomach pain

ahahahahh!

so fun @ night but i didnt sleep at all.

okay, maybe 50 mins than we had to wake up.

left camp @ 730am, hahah go home bathe than left to meet with the Vwest people for harvester meet.

went to sentosa for 3hrs than hahahah! there was this angmog who ran to us & took picture with us.

anyway, than went for the ydance audition.

than met with the Vwest people again for ben&jerrys + free starbucks.

hahah because i didnt have enoguh rest i was like hlf dead + i slept on the bus & because i was so damn tired i couldnt control my body than i kepy on sliding off.

hahah!

than went zhengkai was talking i was half asleep alrdy than when we were praying i was falling in & out of sleep.

hehehe okay totally not my fault

Today,

hahah im so happy i sleep for 13++ hours & woke up @ 12 even though we had live group @ 1045.

than just nice woke up for E! News & lunch.

hahah!

okay anyway, i still fel tired& i think i'll go sleep again.

this is totally not fair, both ness&banani[ armani* wannabe] are watching New Moon today.

i am going to stitch their mouth up when they get back even though i know its not going to be so fab cause banani kept on telling me its quite a spoiler + all mags are saying its not that good.

anyway, there's HSM3 on Disney channel tomorroe whoo~

Shall we dance?

Curet music: Bad romance- lady gaga

Current mood: contented

yay im so happy i can finally rest for a while now :)

cause the musical pract was cancelled suddenly when i was alrdy on my way there so i met up with joan to eat breakfast+ walk around.

anyway, had musical pract everyday this week.

going off to acjc later for a play with the musical people i guess.

i so cant wait for new moon+ shopping ~

The world is ending

Current music: I will be- Leona lewis

Current mood: dying to pee

i forgot to mention that i watched 2012 like .. last wed??????

ya anyway its super boring i was so close to falling asleep & i was playing with my hair, staring into space, stoning etc.

hahaha!

i only enjoyed the last part&those climax part.

the stupidest/funniest thing was lik when there's a funny scene, singaporeans[excluding me] like to clap their hands and laugh like siht& in my heart im thinking 'Seriously, the actors cant hear you, so there's no point clapping&cheering on'

hahaha!

than they literally clapped&cheered on when the movie ended and i was disturbed by them when i was just about to fall asleep.

ahaahhaah!

okay, thats my own opinion only. dont take me to seriously.

anyway, now that i have money $$, i dont feel & dont have the time to shop anymore.

hahaha!

the trip to far east & bugis last monday rally changed my view and now i feel like saving all my money heheheheeh!
okay anyway, banan told me to shop online so .. i guess i will.

anyway, im gonna be so busy with the musical pract+ dance+ camps coming up ):

Current music: super mssive black hole- muse[?]

Current mood: happy

19November 2009,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENLI!!!

had dance from 9-12 and it was beyong tiring.

stayed on till 2 than left cause it was raining like mad than left for smu to meet with the .. err... VWC????? i dont know our name now.

anyway, i really had a shock cause they suddenly popped up with a cake & a huge card&present

aww, so sweet :)

haha, i've been shocked for 1000000 times alrdy.

hahah, when i had my birthday dinner @ amara hotel, the captain also surprised me with a cake + a happy birthday song.

hahah. anyway, had fun @ settler's cafe @ smu than went home.

20November 2009,

omg today is the pemiere of New Moon @ the US.

sobs ):

Bird Day

Current music: Haven't met you yet- Michael Buble

Current mood: happy

16 November 2009,

Went out with zoe,serene,qiuxuan,joey&genevieve[ no order] to far east & bugis to so called celebrate serene& my birthday.

had so much fun with them laughing&embarrassing ourselves & i was on a cant-buy-anything-cause-im-broke mood.

haha but i did buy a bag& thank you so much to : zoe,qiuxuan&serene for sharing money to buy me a dress.

hahha.

love them all <3

17November 2009,

had dance the whole day till 5 then rushed home & left to meet mum&banan for birthday dinner @ amara hotel :D

so happy :)

the dessert is crazy!

then banan started laughing like some pig cause i kept on talking about how nice their dessert is compared to the jelly-jelly carousel dessert.heheheh

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anyway, thanks so much to everyone who had wished me a happy birthday&for some who actually wished me @ 12 though i was sleeping like a pig.

anyway, i just saw my facebook & yay many[ okay la only a few] people wished me happy birthday.

anyway, gonna meet with seokxian for shepherding later.

:)

I just wanna be happy

Current music: Happy- Leona Lewis

Current mood: moody

there's so many things thats gonna happen next week.

i'm packed this whole week with dance& finally hanging out with my friends.

seriously, its like the first time im hanging out with them this year during the hols due to the many things that i have.

anyway, christmas is coming&so i my birthday.

but i dont feel anything special.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE!!!

Current music: time for miracles- Adam Lambert

Current mood: happy&full of regret

omg 'Time for Miracles' is seriously getting on me.

the first time i heard it and i'm alrdy in love with it.

wow!

seriously! omg its so nice!

its for the 2012 movie.

its seriously so nice!

i cant stop gushing bout it!

hahaah, his voice is seriously ahhhh~

haha.

anyway, so in lurrveee with the picture above~

hahaha, anyway, had dance today.

so tiring&fun.

anyway, there's dance on my birthday~ haha,anyway, but its delayed till 5 soi dont know if i can meet mummy in time for dinner~

sobs ):

haha but ness was like 'but at least you'll enjoy doing something you like on your birthday'

haha.

joy.

Maybe?

Current music: Half of my heart- John Mayer ft. Taylor Swift

Current mood: happy

so happy with my haircut though there isn't a difference.

anyway, had musical pract today, left @ 12 &rushed hme to get ready then left to meet daddy for check-up.

lala, went home watch telly&i feel so cosy now.

hahaah!

cause its so cooll~

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Update:
I keep on telling everyone not to ever give up on what they want to do or pursue, but today, there was this point where i felt like giving up on ____.
i know its wrong for me to think that way so i stopped myself immediately and kept holding on.

Fill in the blanks, or not.

Current music: ordinary people- fame soundtrack

Current mood: content yet nervous

just deleted whatever i was typing.

so anyway, this week hs been a pretty hectic and slow week for me.

on monday, i stayed home watching Twilight& re-read New Moon[685893 time]

on tuesday, i went for dance

there was school on wed but i also had musical pract so i left @ 10 for musical pract. it was pretty fun :)

today, had dance after school and came home than left again to cut my hair.

btw, my hair's in such a weird shape now though the hairdresser did not cut much.

i was like "jian bao, YI DIAN." [ trim my hair, A LITTLE only.]

haha. & he literally only jian bao a little.

heehehe.

which is pretty good cause i wanna have looonnngg hair ;))))

i am in no mood to post anything causde i suddenly feel so empty bout the thing that was supposed to be on this post.

5 minutes!

Current music: someone who watch over me* -fame soundtrack

Current mood: happy

i have exactly 4 minutes or less to post because i want to watch E! News.

hahah you know they're going to show something bout R-Pat tomorrow i think.

cause we're 1 day behind from the US.

anyway, im feeling rather content with what i have & what i dont ):

but, i have thought about life for the longest time & i realise that i should just live my life as the way God has put it to be.

ahlalal, im left with 2 minutes!

k, anyway, the picture above really describes how ifeel now :)

yay happy&sad me (:(

Empire state

Current music: Empire state of mind- Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys
Current mood: excited

just erad the new moon companion guide thingy or whatever the title of the book is called.

anyway, i am alrdy gonna jump off my seat while typing this because i'm so excited!

hahaah.

anyway, had the musical pract thingy on friday and it was pretty fun.

there's gonna be intensive practs so i dont know how im not going to feel tired.but, on a positive note, i wont have insomnia anymore~

hahaah.

WWW!

Went to www yesterday with serene, qiuxuan, genevieve,zoe, joey[ no order]

so fun :D

Positive/Negative. You choose.

Current music: ordinary people- Fame soundtrack

Current mood: excited

look at that picture!

hehehehe, so happy now.

anyway, had dance pract today after 10 billion years of exams.

so happy&tired&having a little muscle pain now + my feet hurts cause just now spin too much.

hahahaah.

Don't ever let it go

Current music: Hold your dream- Fame soundtrack

Current mood: excited yet bored

haven't been posting much nowadays.

anyway, on thursday went to eva's house to make sushi for the sushi party which was today.

on friday didnt' go to school so met sonia afterwards followed by seokxian&erica*jamie then met daddy&mummy.

today, had service then had the sushi party than met daddy&mummy and ate, boguht stuff etc.

anyway, tomorrow going to ikea to buy the curitan etc.

my life seem so boring.

so, What's Next?

Feelings

Update: I am feeling rather ,quite, extremely happy about my results.
though its not the best, but, i made improvement ! :D

New Moon!

Current music: her we go again- demi lovato

Current mood: excited

you know there's only a month left for the people in USA before they can catch New Moon, but sadly, for me, i have to wait for another 2 months ):

sobs.

they can watch it on 20 nov but i can only watch it on 3 Dec.

anyway, so cant wait to watch it!

i saw the new clip of it & im about to melt!

Into the wild

Current music: Try-Asher Book

Current mood: happy

today had been such a boring day.

i woke up and watched tv& used the comp and ate only.

anyway, there's school tomorrow which means > getting back my results which isn't what i want to know.

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"Last words of wisdom. If your parents are screwed up, don't turn to them. Use them as an example of who not to be-be yourself instead. You can overcome your fears, you can change, you can make life into what you've always wanted it to be. Maybe not tomorrow, but soon. So hang in"

"Failure is not an option," Nash tells everyone. "If your life sucks now, it can only improve later. We all feel alone. We all feel desperate. Know that we're all in this together. You're not alone, no matter what. Remember that."

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Pictures from friday. only got a few from zoe cause im too lazy to take my cable & upload.

Current music: Fame -Fame soundtrack

Current mood: none

went to jb yesterday & bought many stuff :)

yay!

anyway, the exams are alrdy over & there was the grad performance.

was quite sucky but its a lesson learnt.

anyway, had to much fun preparing & stuff.

:)

Book of the day!

" Look, man, " Dirk goes. " We're all sinking in the same boat here. We're all bored and desperate and waiting for something to happen. Waiting for life to get better. Waiting for things to change. Waiting for that one person to finally notice us. We're all waiting. But we also realise that we all have the power to make those changes for ourselves. Yeah, I'm the last one who should advertise about taking control of your life. I talk big and act like a dork most of the time. But it doesn't stop me from hoping i can be different. We all can change the way we are. Maybe not as much as we want to, but at least we can make things better. "

- Waiting for you,
Susane Colasanti

Har-Peeee!!!!!

Current music: You'll always find your way back home -Hanna Montana: The movie; soundtrack

Current mood: Happy

yay!

just 2 more papers to go & I'M FREEEEE!!!!~~~~

i am so happy.

anyway, i had gastrics today cause i didnt eat lunch, well, i did eat bread @ home.. , anyway, went for caregroup later.

hahaha so funny!

anyway, i am so happy & i dont know why.

Yay finally a happy post for YOU to read!

whoopie!~

Feelin' like there's nothing to figure out

Current music: Fiften- Taylor Swift
Current mood: complacent

Go check out Taylor Swift's new video, Fiften!!!

super nice!

anyway, had math paper today, & it was almost the same thing as the common test.

then after that went to lot with pohtoi, adelene,yingyi,caifang [no order]

)":

Current music: avalanche -Maire Digby

Current mood: sad, low, depressed

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Your problem is you are to busy holding on to your unworthiness. - Ram Dass

I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start

Current music: Stand Still, Look Pretty

Current mood: thoughtful

Stand Still, Look Pretty

I want to paint my face

And pretend that I am someone else

Sometimes I get so fed up

I don't even want to look at myself

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But people have problems that are worse than mine

I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time

And I hate the way you look at me I have to say

I wish I could start over

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[Chorus]

I am slowly falling apart

I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start

You might think it's easy being me

You just stand still, look pretty

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Sometimes I find myself shaking

In the middle of the night

And then it hits me and I can't

Even believe this is my life

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But people have problems that are worse than mine

I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time

And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths

I'm not strong enough to deal with it

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[Chorus 2x]

but you're already gone

Current music: Alrdy gone- Kelly Clarkson

Current mood: excited yet sad

omg.

new New Moon poster!

wheeee ~

anyway, had english paper today.

it wasnt so bad.

haha anyway there's mt paper tomorrow +dance.

wow.

Whats not to like?

Current music: Fame- fame soundtrack

Current mood: shocked

omg. mika is gay.

anyway, hmmm today lesson passed by so fast and we were discussing bout our birthday!

hahahaha.

so fun yet so sad cause we might not be together next year.

anyway, im alrdy looking forward to this holiday!

:D

happiness lies within you

@ dad's office now :)
i woke up at 6 just to go to ica to do my fingerprint again!
hahahah anyway,
im going off to church later than cone back to dad's office than after that go to the airport to fetch aunty stella with family ~

btw, i've watched 'Fame' alrdy

its a damn nice show omg i think im going insane cause their dance is very nie&i wanna but the soundtrack!

whoooo~

sigh.

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here we go again

Current music: party in the usa- miley cyrus

Current mood: blah.

doing my fnn coursework now.

so tiring and sleepy and boring.

anyway, on tues i decided to quit the musical and i told ms andrea bout it.

than today zhaolao ask me not to quit cause ms fern ask her to tell me.

aiyo.

so whoooooooooy

I pray it wont fade away

Current music: Halo-Beyonce

Current mood: touched& teary

just saw a video which beyonce had a special girl on stage with her[beyonce].

that girl has leukemia and well, beyonce sang 'Halo' for her.

it left everyone teary-eyed!

its really very nice!

maybe its her emotions or whatever, its brilliant!

anyway, mummy didnt let me go for dance today )':

so angry with her cause she forced me to go for ahma's birthday celebration.

i know i'll regret this thinking of mine someday.

anyway, so pissed/angry!

anyway, went to sakura for lunch&to celebrate her birthday than after that went to a flea market :)

after that, went back to ah ma's house than left.

sucha happy yet sad day ;/

anyway, exams are coming & im so not loking forward to it.

dont worry, it'll all be over. i hope.

just cant wait for the www day with kali&pp :)

Thriller

Current music: Beautiful eyes-Taylor Swift

Current mood: in a dilemma

im caught between going on with the musical or giving it up.

banana said that even though its worth the experience, my studies will fall.

so.. i dont know.

part of me wants to go and do the musical but part of me is afraid.

cause joey said that m&d will be having 3 performances to pract this year that we'll be performing next year[chinese new year, taiwan trip&chingay] but joan says we might not be in all.

so i am honestly lost.

anyway, suppose to go for the horizon concert today but mum doesnt let, so yea.

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(:(

Update: just found out that aunty stella is helping us buy havianas from austrlia cause banana says its very cheap :) :)
i wanted yellow but banana insisted that i took brown because i dont have a choice! ):<
anyway, banana just said that aunty stella is gonna get some dont know what crystal thingy on the slipper.
i am so lost.

Shake the glitter

Current music: breathe-Taylor Swift

Current mood: tired

went for swimming with adelene,pohtoi& dolly[no order]

went home & i fell asleep immediately once i on my tv.

haha.

you&me always between the lines

Current music: between the lines - Sara Bareilles

Current mood: full

Its Nick's birthday today :D

anyway, had english oral today followed by a short pract of dance then had caregroup.

today's dance pract was crazy&fun.

learnt malay dance steps from the chinese teacher.

i didnt know she could dance so well.

haha!

anyway, Happy Birthday Nick <3

Beautiful nightmare

Current music: two worlds collide- demi lovato
Current mood: angry

i hate it whenever i buy grapes, they clearly state that its 'seadless grapes' but whenever i eat it there's always seeds inside ):

anyway, enjoying my fro-grapes now :)

i still dont know how to do the fnn coursework.

SOS!

walking in sunshine

Current music: i will be -leona lewis
Current mood: happy

another happy day for me :)

had dance practs from wed to thurs frommorning til evening.

anyway, had so much fun laughing together&bondng with the sec 3s :)

anyway, there's gonna be an audition next friday for the musical next year &all the sec3s were selected & we have to sing&dance!

i dont mind the dancing part but singing is just waaaayyy off limits!

anyway, how am i suppose to do the fnn coursework when ms tay hasn't uploaded the file!

p.s. Loch Ness Monster has officially called herself Bird Nest.

OH EM GEE!

Current music: love drunk-boys like girls

Current mood: excited

LOOK AT THIS NEW 'NEW MOON' POSTER!

wheee!

anyway, i just realised it was Beyonce's birthday like .. recently.

hahahah.

so glad its the holidays!

btw, it was Loch Ness Monster's birthday yesterday,

Happy 18 Birthday!

love&peace.

Bagful of sunshine

Current music: angel-leona lewis

Current mood: inspired

had photo taking for both class&dance today.

very fun ;)

got back our report slip etc.

than dance was cancelled so went to lot for lunch with zoe,gene,ahxuan,joey [no order]

than went to library to think bout the dance steps etc.

met banan later than home.

anyway, my holidays are burnt with dance&stuff.

ohya, i was browsing through my picture and i saw this :

peace.

Made to blow

Current music: Yesterday- Leona Lewis
Current mood: thoughtful

everybody's going on and on about how mature they are but in actual fact, we're all immature freaks.

everyone goes on about how lame they were in sec1 but have they even changed?

we're still the person we were last time.

stop judging people for something they are not or did not do.

many people's saying stuff about friendship, including me, and it hurts and sucks to be the victim of the stuff that people say.

we all know how that feels like so, we should really stop.

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aww, i sound so WOW.

haha, i can be so deep. [haha!]

anyway, it has been raining for the longest time in the universe so Loch Ness Monster& I did not buy lunch.

so now i guess she's starving.

if she see's my blog or if that Banan see's my blog i'm dead.

HAHAHA!

p.s. i purposely typed 'Banan' . its not a typo.

p.s.s. im still not done with my fnn!

my.life.is.over.

Wake up call

Current music: we are golden-mika

Current mood: full

doing fnn now.

had the teachers' day concert just now.

what a letdown.

so boring.

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went to westmall to watch 'the proposal' with qiuxuan,zoe,genevieve [no order]

supper funny!

esp when there was this guy/girl who laughed like a mad freak with a funny soundd

super funnnyy!

hahaha.

anyway, there's finally a rest on tuesday or as known as the 'longest day'.

hahh