Whispers "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

Current music: defying gravity- glee soundtrack

Current mood: thoughtful

Life is .. somehow and perhaps a tad bit happier. i think.

i just realised how much i like studying in a group.

studied with the church people[ haha, it sounds weird] & i have accomplished:

-my math revision paper

-understood SS

-understood a little bit of bearings

-did 3/4 of my fnn evaluation

yay i am (not) a happy girl :)

had flag day today and it a total bore.

i was dilly dallying @ home until it was like 8+ than i realised how late i was hahaha cause i had to be in school by 820.

had flag day @ jurong & the people were so unfriendly.

hahah i think after being rejected for the 126486 time, adelene, doris and i [sorta] gave up and walked to imm to buy food to eat but we started walking around giant, followed by buying shihlin chicken&tempura&sweet talk and sitting @ level 2 and talk till like 11+ than walked back to meet back with the class.

hahah this is so funny how i can post such an inhuman thing that we did.

hehehe

went back to school then went to ut to waste time cause adelene&i will not leave the house again after we reach home haha.

met with the prefects for the party but left @ like 5.

which was pretty much redundant because we barely did anything.

we were talking about how acid rain will make you have pimples so we were all sharing a small umbrella hahah.

anyway, i (still) have no motivation to study sigh

i feel like i have a mindset of an old woman :(

i feel that i am very conservative, i am a very naggy, i am always telling adelene to eat breakfast, i am always telling people to love your parents, i am always disgusted by __________.

hahah yes so i think i am growing old. :( :( :(

sobs

Happily never after

Current music: Happily never after- pcd

Current mood: depressed

just took a look @ serene's blog.

i am officially going to suffer from sadness for eternity..

sigh.

i am super sad now, but as yingyi&i were talking today, she was like 'one day the sadness will fade. (...) reality is harsh.'

sigh, as much as i know that 1 day i will stop feeling sad but sigh just let the sadness overwhelm me for now.

i wonder when we will be so happy like in the photo above.

maybe 1 day, when pigs start to fly and perhaps there will be no such things called exams.

she took the midnight train going anywhere

Current music: myl ife would suck without you- glee soundtrack

Current mood: sad

had perf yesterday.

it is well, our last performance ever.

i was telling the group about it and peter was like 'eugenia its not your last dance' and i was like 'yes it is, we're all stepping down today' the conversation went on, and he wanted us[zoe,yingyi,me] to stay on till next year.

well..

i've thought long and hard about my future.

there are so many barriers in my way.

i have a sudden uncertainty about my future.

my future was decided weeks ago, i knew what i wanted.

but now there are so many barriers in my way the only way i can make it through is to let go, and let God.

all i need is time, a moment that is mine.

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anyway, my week was a rather slow, sad, lifeless week.

i am never truly happy.

when will i ever be?

on a [trying] happier note,

dolly's birthday just passed.

we had an awesome celebration for her.

we really tricked her into believing what we had planned.

whee such an innocent girl.

heehheh.

on friday,

i was like super sleepy throughout the whole day.

my mind became blank after recess and i could not stop sleeping.

even the pinching method, jumping up and down method, standing up and down method didnt work anymore.

hahah so anyway, went for dance with yingyi after school.

had awards day performance and also collected an award on behalf of mnd.

hahah after collecting the award, i stuffed my dinner down my throat and we started playing iceman.

whee~

such a fun and last experience.

hahahah had performance afterwards which was well, i'd rate it 8.5/10

hheheeh my 2.5 is well, my emotional barriers which i sorta manage to conquer.

after perf, everyone started breaking down etc.

went to ut with serene,joey and joan for like a sorta h2ht and eating.

hahahah so fun.

im going to be super negative and write this down:

it is the last h2ht we will ever have.

we were talking about our last moments etc, and joey was like 'eugenia, this is the last time i will look at you and smile' sigh.

the most vivid memory i have of us smiling was during the chingay parade.

it was truly a moment to remember.

i remember me looking @ joey and both of us will start smiling and laughing. hahaha

truly happy memories that will last forever..

puffy green clouds

LOVE.
i wish i could rewind time.
i wish i could not regret what i did in the past.
i wish i could treasure what i had.
i wish i could understand how i feel now last time.
i wish. i wish. i wish.
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not really enjoying my life now.
sigh, life is totally meaningless and boring.
dreading for tomorrow to come because i dont find joy in going to school anymore.
i used to have this little excitement everyday in the past whenever i woke up and realise what i had planned for today.
but today, as i woke up, there was no little excitement to make me a tad bit happier.
i tend to take things really slow when i dont find a excitement or a little joy in what i do.
no wonder mum was saying ' you've been leaving the house late for school nowadays'.
what can i say? 'oh because i dont find any joy in my life now.'
imagine if a mother hears their child saying that.
its been a long time since i walk with a bounce and feel that little joy and happiness every alternate second.
sigh i just feel like crying

its our last time, to share the stage
before we go our separate ways
high school wasnt meant to last forever

omg zul looks like dao ming si in the photo.

hahahahh okay.

Process is difficult but results are rewarding.

-ZhengKai

just for one moment touch the sky

Current music: Reach- reach the musical

Current mood: happy, sad, contemplative

This week has been a blast for me and the cast members.

i am speechless.

the musical started last September, when the auditions began.

i never wanted to go for the audition, but for m&d, i went for it.

surprisingly, i got in though i never thought i would cause i was not prepared.

people came and left the musical soon after, i decided to stay on because of, well, my portfolio.

practice for the musical began during the holidays and i really didn't like being inside the musical, i was complaining to every human i saw that i did not want to be part of it. i tried to quit, not once, but many many countless times, but without fail, ms fern would always stop me.

and i thought she was just being mean and that she didn't understand how i would feel.

jan 2010 came shortly after many musical practices. Chingay was coming up and we were all so busy with chingay that we couldn't go for musical practices.

many teachers were disappointed with us cause we went for chingay rehearsals that fell on every sat, with clashed with the musical practices.

after chingay ended, we went for the musical, but our hearts were not in it. i skipped every single ydance practice for musical and i nearly had to leave ydance.

there were so many things in my way that made me want to drop the musical.

in feb or so, we got our act 2 script, in only 2 months or less we had to perfect our musical.

things were extremely tough because not every one's heart was in it, honestly, i doubt mine was either.

many things happened, many scoldings, much tears and sorrows and hatred was in the way of doing a good show.

throughout the last week of our rehearsals, everyone decided to change for the better and do our best because we knew what we wanted. many of us wanted a standing ovation. many of us wanted to show others that they could be better than the rest.

during the RP rehearsals, we gave our all and decided not to let anything get in our way.

many of us fell sick but we did not give up, in our 18 cast members, half of us were all sick.

on the actual day of performance, many of us cried before the show because of so many things.

mrs grothers was an awesome director, so was ms umi. they have taught us so many things that we will never forget in our lives.

ms siti was also an awesome choreographer too who taught me to do so many stuff.

i am truly extremely grateful to what they all have done for this show.

yesterday was the actual performance, everyone was in sky high because we all knew we did the best that we had ever done in our lives.

wow.

i am truly grateful to ms fern for not letting me quit in the past.

i love everyone in the musical.

lotsa love!

my future decided

I've thought about it and i've finally realised that this is where i want to be.
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Not going to school throughout this week because of musical pract and also because im sick.
i was sharing my drink with yasmeen and she was like im sick you know, and i thought it was some cough or something..
sobs ;/
had fever since yesterday and it sucks.
anyway, REACH the musical is this sat!
i am finally, after many many months or practice, excited about the musical.
i've thought about many stuff lately, and i realised so many things and it makes me see life in a different perspective- both good and bad.
anyway, watched so you think you can dance& glee today. yay happy day for me although being sick is nothing to be happy about.
anyway, i cant believe i am saying this, but, i cant wait for REACH the musical :) :)
i might as well make the best of what i have, right?

making a little magic in the moonlight

Current music: kiss the girl- Keith Urban

Current mood: sad, but hopeful

West is finally 3!

performaed with weixian&shihui for the west anniversary!

super fun :) :)

we only practiced twice and during our first pract we were just talking about very lame stuff like our clothes etc.

only on the second and final practice, did we start to practice haha.

but i have to say, the dance was okay due to our 2 practices only.

hahaah!

anyway, had musical practice today which was pretty fine.

gonnah ave practice for the whole of next week. literally.

so.. yea.

love the photo above with minyi,cristine&peiwen during our west anni. :) :) :)

moodless

Life sucks.

"Nothing hurts like losing, when you know its already gone. Except for the pain of choosing to hold on too long"